Hurt

Well I found this song that I've been listening to constantly- "Miserable At Best" by Mayday Parade. I can't seem to get the tune out of my head and the lyrics are ok but I have decided to rewrite it. Ok, its a big project and its not like I do this often and its a long song, but someone has inspired me to do it. So, that's my plan, and I'm also learning to play it on the piano and hopefully the guitar. I love music and its a way to get me playing. I think this is going to take me quite a while though, oh well I'll let you know when I'm done and maybe put it on youtube. Now if you listen to the song then you will see how it ties into the title.

Hurt, yes, its amazing all the little ways one can be hurt when they open themselves up to people. It gets even harder when two people are in different places in life so what one expects the other can't give. Now as I said in my last blog, sometimes the best things in life come with a little heartache, but when does it become too much I wonder? I think everyone has their own limits.
I, along with everyone else, have had my share of heartache and I have to say the more times it happens the less willing I am to let it happen again. So I think I can understand when some people are hurt really badly they aren't in a hurry to get out there and let it happen again. I think its important to give yourself a healing time before you move on to your next "love" because otherwise you carry that pain with you and makes the next relationship you have pretty hard not only for you but for the person your seeing. I also think that if you find yourself in such a relationship, meaning with someone who is still hurting, you might want to back out until that person is truly ready and if its meant to be he or she will come back. Of course in order for them to want to come back you need to be very understanding and kind when you say 'come back when you ready'.
lol, well those are my thoughts for the day.

New This, New That

Well blogger's its been awhile, but every time I come on this thing I find that I have nothing to say or what I wanted to say I wasn't sure I should, haha.

So I've been ok here back in Victoria. It is a beautiful city and even though there are things I don't like about it, but I also know that if I don't try and be happy now I never will.

Life sure throws me around sometimes. I mean one minute I'm in Burns Lake the next Northern Ireland and now I'm right back where I started and where I never wanted to be, lol.

I'm working in my old job which isn't go so well, but it will only be until the end of the summer. I can't wait until Fall, because I am actually going to college. I just can't believe it sometimes, but its comforting to have something solid in my life when everything else always changes.

Of course I don't know what will happen next year but for now I'm quite content to be focused on school, for the most part.

There is one part of my life that has changed and its not exactly a solid change, meaning I have no idea which way it will go. I think some of the best things in life come with a little risk and this change is defiantly a risk and it has brought me a lot of happiness but it has also brought a lot of worry and fear. I have great hopes though, that with a bit of patients and lots of prayer things will only get better. Haha, have you figured out what I'm talking about yet, well I'm not going to say for sure this time but maybe another. However, I would appreciate prayer to help me get through the difficult times.

Well I'll try and write more in the coming months, for I think life is just getting more interesting by the day and I have to tell somebody about it, lol.

LOTS OF LUV!

WOW

Well, I haven't written in a while so I thought I should think of something to say...
I'm back in Canada now. I sure had an interesting four months in Northern Ireland and already look forward to going back there as soon as I can. Though there was some difficult times, with my passport and the fact that I sat around too much putting on weight, I still can't say I regret it. I know what I would do different next time...PLAN! I thought I would be spontaneous and just get up and go, it works for some people, but it sure makes life hard if you don't plan some parts. However, I realise that I need to relax a bit more with my decision, 'not every decision is life or death'. I think with this new frame of mind I might actually decide what I wish to do with my life. Lets just hope!
Anyway I'm still adjusting to the time change, I get really tired around 9pm and am wide a wake at 7am which is a complete change for me. It was a really warm and sunny day today so my mom, my two little brothers and I went for a walk down town. Victoria is a lovely city in the spring and summer, there's always something going on. I am going to try and take lots of pictures and put them all on facebook for everyone to see. Well I guess that's it for now, I'm starting to fall asleep.....ZZzzzz. Hopefully I'll have something more interesting to say next week.
bye for now